And I'm sick of screaming beacause these words have died

Sun, 10 Jun 2007 21:50:34 GMT

you know that feeling like you're on top of the world. then just do a freefall and land on your ass...yeah thats about what i feel like at the moment.. and for some reason this song sort of sets the mood for that....yeah

Tue, 22 May 2007 22:11:06 GMT

well, glad i made decisions i have made so far. bitches still trifle. i still get money, still getting meaningless tattoos. im glad i have the ACTUAL friends i have. pretty sad that i have friends from far away and i hang out with them way more than people who act like they're friends here in town. just saying, glad i know who my friends are and not stop being a true friend just because the decisions i've made. so thankful for a lot of things as of right know. but still hating the people i hate and several things i hate.
and with that i bid good day.

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 00:01:46 GMT

ladies and gentlemen, I, mike torres had one of the best weekends i've had since forever. met new people, had a fuckin blast with some solid ass dudes. and now i only wish that people would get the hint (that's as far as i'll say about that) and i mean that in so many different ways to so many different people. i guess people just cant catch a hint. anyways, i hope those people can come to reality and be probably a lot more content than i man right now. i will say that i've learned my lessons with a lot of different things and im not going to get what i want all the time but earn it. again im meaning these things in so many different ways. never thought that i can be this content. dont get me wrong, still hate the people i hate, still digusted by the things that disgust me. but im not worried about those things at the moment, sort of want to try and be a little selfish because i think through all the bullshit that i've been through i sort of owe it to myself.
the end

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 16:04:13 GMT

not much has changed. im still sick of everything, my job....well that's about all i have time for. like i've said before im sick of almost everyone and everything. i hate the way people treat other people and think nothing of it, AND THEY DONT EVEN REALIZE THEY'RE DOING IT! but when you bring it up and ''make a big deal'' about it then you're the wierdo, you're the outkast. im tired of sorries, im tired of shitty fucking excuses, im tired of getting fucked over, im tired of trying just to see what kind of failure will happen in the end, because god forbid something good will come from this.
dont be surprised if i dont talk to most of you for a while. if i have to fucking shun myself from people i know are lairs, hypocrites, backstabbers, and just generally stupid idiotic fucks who i always seem to run into then so be it. funny thing is some of you dont even know it but you might just be the person (people) who im talking about. like i said dont be surprised.
think im cold hearted? I DONT GIVE A FUCK!

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 17:33:03 GMT

i've decided that i'll never be happy with anything. every motherfucking time i try to make myself happy it blows up right in my fucking face. but dont mind me im just dumbass mike who cant listen to shit friends, and then im the dumb one that has to listen to ''hate to say it, but i told you so''. FUCK THAT, FUCK LYING ASS BITCHES WHO DENY EVERYTHING, FUCK IT ALL!

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 13:52:18 GMT

why is it that everttime i have something good going on, someone and/ or something has to fuck it up. all this excitement for fucking nothing. i cant even be mad because i should've seen it coming. i wish there was something i can do to fix things. THANKS FOR THE HELP FRIENDS!!

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 23:22:01 GMT

is it wierd that when i start to get mad at things i find asking myself why do i get pissed off at everything. it's not even worth the bullshit anymore. there's so many things i could be mad over but most of the people who cause it dont even know they're doing it. just saying, i know who my real friends are, i know who i can trust. and i only wish people knew the truth and can find themselves. point being, people who get way too into themselves should be shot, i got about a bucket full of people who cant get out of their little fucking hole and see that people are actually trying to be friends with them and associate with them. this doesnt go out to a certain person, this goes to about probably half of the people i know. again I HATE THIS TOWN, I HATE THIS WORLD AND I PROBABLY HATE YOU!!
ok i love you, BYE!

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 15:44:28 GMT

well someone must hate me. for some odd reason i had a 6 inch nail stuck in my tire, unless i ran that bitch over and i didnt notice. but i parked my car yesterday afternoon and my mom tells me that i have a flat tire. but it was fine whenever i was driving that morning. anyways, another reason why i hate the world, because faggots wanna put nails in my fuckin tires. seriously if somebody did do this shit, LET ME KNOW. im looking for fucking heads.

this is me letting everything go and getting it off my chest.....here we go

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 18:10:02 GMT

i hate what you are
i hate what you do
i hate the shit that you do to me
i hate what you make me feel
i hate to get my hopes up
thinking what is right
blowing up in my face
i hate what i've become to be
I HATE WHAT YOU'VE MADE ME BECOME TO BE
i hate that you have no idea what im talking about
and yet i still stick with the same shit
giving myself this pounding fucking headache
day in and day out
i never thought i'd say things so hateful
but it's the way i feel towards almost everyone
this town, this country, this world
take this however you want to take it
but something needs to happen.....soon

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 01:52:21 GMT

I HATE EVERYONE, AND EVERY FUCKING THING!!!!

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 13:51:00 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JJOOOOSSSHHH!!!

somebody wish this man a happy birthday, or give him a blowjob or something, nigga aint getting any younger!! haha, i love you josh, dont die on me old man.

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 15:07:39 GMT

well so much for feeling at home. i have to leave this house like soon. because the fucktard who was gonna ''sell'' us the house decided that he doesnt want to sell it after all. honestly, i blame my dad, for of course hiring his fuckass friend as our realtor, then deciding to ''buy'' a house from who? yet another drunken asshole who doesnt know what the fuck he's doing. we have to look for somewhere else to live, my mom said we might go to a town house or something. just as i was getting comfortable....this would happen to me only.
H8 H8 H8 H8 H88888

attention bitches

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 17:55:30 GMT

i have my internet back. and i was looking through my friends list, and damn........c'mon guys. depressing posts are well.....depressing, not good entires for coming back into the wonderful world of the internet. anyways, if you missed Too Pure To Die last night, which you probably did, then you probably missed out on a dank ass show. anyways, if any george jenkins, 16 year old kids want to fuck with us....then, well....you saw what happend
nuff said
xNJDx (you fuck with one, you fuck with the family)

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 17:40:00 GMT

my internet is getting cut off b/c of the whole moving situation, but everyone call me and stuff cuz im not gonna have shit to do this weekend besides moving shit. so yeah, until then.......

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 17:04:26 GMT

lots of stuff on my mind
-definitely have to be out of the house by this weekend, dont know if everything's gonna be ready for us to go into the new house
-my packing is almost done
-taxes suck
-i've been needing/ wanting something, but i dont what it is yet
-Tiffany, i hope you find what it is you want, and i hope you make the right decision, and be both know what it is, rather than what you want to believe is right....but im not going to be here for long
-i've been having insomnia the past couple of night, because of work, moving, money situations, etc
-work is going to be ridiculous tomorrow, and i have a 40 hour week to look forward to, did i mention i do that in 3 and a half days..
-i feel like i've lost the best thing that ever happened to me recently
-hopefully this move will change a lot of things
-things people say are pissing me off
-according to scumbags (which name i wont mention)i have no life
-i cant be around couples, it makes me sick to my stomach, hense why i went home early last night
-picnic today with brandi

so somebody make my day/week/life better...if you dont know how to do that then dont bother. but most of ya'll niggas know

before i forget..

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 17:23:46 GMT

i have to be out of my house by i think feb 9 or 10. if anybody's willing to help i'd appreciate it. we have a lot of big stuff in the house, so yeah. i'll even feed you. oh yeah, and go to christina park tonight, it's gonna be good.

IT'S TIME TO GATHER ROUND...

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 17:19:03 GMT

IT'S GOING DOWN...
All or Nothing
Reaching Without Arms
Flightline Drive
Takeheart
Christina Park
Saturday
6:30
FREE

dont be a bitch, MOVE!!

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 17:42:24 GMT

soooo if you didnt go to the show at 688. you probably missed the best show rwa has ever played, i think. fucking amazing. john puked his brains out, i hit some people, we sang along, pissed owners at 688 off, and i saw john's wiener. i think it was all in all a good night.

if you fuckin care....

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 19:30:37 GMT

in all honesty, i've never thought the government was this bad. jsut got done watching a documentary on this whole 9/11 conspiracy. http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-2023320890224991194
if you actually give a shit about where this piece of shit of a country is going, then watch this in entirety. YOU WILL BE IN SHOCK. this hard evidence probably convince even the most closed minded people out there. you wont be sorry, WATCH IT!

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 17:59:47 GMT

im sorry, but im not going to put it effort towards something and not have the other person not put effort back to it, it's getting pretty fucking ridiculous and im tired of fucking chasing. and katie im sorry for running off like that, i said i was sorry before i left...so yeah dont get pissed off or anything. but im tired of the bullshit, that's all it is and there's no explanation for it, im done....

oh yeah one more thing
FRIENDS&FAMILY ONLY...get off mah nutsack

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 00:55:11 GMT

you know, for being sick, and all the bullshit that's going on....this has actually been a good fuckin week. i love my friends (the ones i have left)....that's all i have to say. and apparently i should hardlone my own father, you can thank nikki for suggesting that, that girl is just too fuckin tuff for a nigga....
im outtie

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 17:06:38 GMT

ok so, i went to first period today, and my eyes started doing this wierd thing, like i could barely see anything, then i got dizzy and my face got cold. it was probably the wierdest thing i've ever endured, so now im home still wondering what the fuck happened to me. oh yeah and mrs. lopez said i looked pale as fuck......i think im dying. anyways good weekend, saw my home dogs. wish i couldve hung out with more people, but we know how that goes. some people came and looked at my house and said they're gonna try and work out a deal with the realtors, hopefully i'll be living on the southside soon.

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 04:37:48 GMT

tonight was good. the Nizzle Jizzle Dizzle was in full effect tonight, most definitely. got fucked up by josh, but that nigga slappated on tha flo', i still luv him....anyways, hitting people is funny...

YA'LL NIGGAS BE SOME HOE ASS PUSSY ASS NIGGAS,

MY NIGGAS BE SOME ROY JONES BEAT YO AZZ NIGGAS!!!!!

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 20:59:54 GMT

ok so AIM isnt working for me, but im going to the show tonight, hope to see you guys there....call me if you want to hang, if you dont got the number.....then you must not be important..

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 21:14:15 GMT

let start with this, i hate a great majority of my fuckin school. check this, i go to school yeasterday wearing my terror shirt that i bought the night before at the show. and some kid in my guitar class ask me, ''why does the dude on your shirt have hardcore written on his knuckles?'' *in a tone voice* and i was like ''b/c terror is a hardcore band, why...what do you listen to? korn or metallica?'' he says ''yeah''...first wrong move....then he comes back with ''well terror or whatever isnt as hardcore as metallica or pantera''...by this point im fuckin pissed and shocked all at the same time..then he says ''you listen to metallica right?'' (me) ''uuhh....no that shit is gross''....(he says)''pantera?'' (me)''no dude..'' he says, ''so what do you listen to........now lemme say this, THIS IS WHY I HATE KATHLEEN HIGH SCHOOL. seriously, this kid is set on the (what he thinks) ''fact'' that metallica korn or whatever fuckass bands that this fucked up grill looking kid listens to...
sorry i just thought i'll let you know how kids are in my school, and how fucking away from everything they really are...oh yeah, and this kid decided to come up to me, not once but several times, and ask for my guitar and swearing that he's gonna teach me a song that will be the most amazing song i ever play............he plays iron man......and metallica......im done talking about this...

anyways, to end this very interesting entry, let me show you how mwe and jimmy's weird ass conversation went last night when we went to the mall..

Me: Jimmy, did you know that they called me Driggers a long time ago when i was in a gang

Jimmy: Huh?

Me: My gang members use to have a nickname for me, they called me Driggers

Jimmy: They called you Druggers??

Me: NO! Driggers motherfucker!

Jimmy: Oh, why did they call you Driggers?

Me: Well, i was a nigger...that had a dull trigger on his gun....so they came up with the nickname Driggers...for dull triggers

(and then we walk into FYE)
keep in my mind, me and jimmy are the most randomest niggas ever...people get fustrated b/c they never know what we're talking about, and that's what makes it so dam hilarious.....ok im out